So as I sit here staring at my computer screen, hoping to extract some sort of inspiration from the music I'm listening to, searching through my mind in desperation of something to say; I realize that I was not always like this. For some reason I'm always disoriented. I can barely focus to make a post. I'm all over the place. But, for the first time in my life, I am confused as to why. Maybe I'm just uninspired. Whatever it is, it needs to stop. I feel like I'm slowly loosing myself; I'm falling out of my own clinched grip which is not ready nor willing to let go.    o_0