Sitting and I'm thinking....

My birthday is on Monday! I'm turning 18, and honestly, I'm not overly excited because I've never been a big birthday person. But I am excited to spend some time with my friends and rack up some great gifts...the only thing is me and my ex are not on speaking terms AT ALL! It kind of hurts my feelings because ideally I feel like we should be together on this day, but I have to be realistic and know that our relationship is down the drain and there is no patching things up. I'll invite him to whatever gathering I do decide to have just out of respect for what we had...but do I expect fireworks?? No.